Can I just say one thing before I say anything else?
Go to your nearest Trader Joe’s and buy some COOKIE BUTTER! (Could ever there be two words so perfectly made for each other that we should have put them together centuries ago?!) The cookie butter mixed with cocoa (YES. You heard me right. MIXED WITH COCOA.) looks like this and I can guarantee you will be dancing a happy jig with spoonfuls in your mouth!!:
Can you tell I haven’t been working for two days?
Yeah, just me and the cookie butter.
…….. Just kidding. (Sort of).
So, anyway, this week I got sick.
On Monday, actually.
(And yes…I know today is only Tuesday so this post will be short because I. Will. Rest.)
But remember how I’m a fellow planner with all you fine type-A folks? Well, I had my week laid out quite nicely already.
And then I got sick.
And not the kind of sick where I could battle through and still get things done, apparently.
Because I tried.
gallantly stubbornly went through Monday morning trying to check things off my list, mail my queries, clean the house, prep for my nanny babies, and of course play with Tuck so he wouldn’t tear up the new carpet with his colossal amounts of jungle-cat energy. (Note to self: check up on whether or not Tuck has the DNA of a wild bobcat or a panther or something).
Needless to say, Monday morning ended with me in bed and all the lights off and I couldn’t even open my eyes for Downton Abbey. Yes, I know!!!! Nuts, right?!! Lady Mary couldn’t even get me to stay awake. That’s when you know it’s serious, folks.
I was spent.
And yet, running a fever and attempting to hear noise above the ringing in my ears, I was still frustrated. I was frustrated because I didn’t want to rest.
And this morning when I woke up with my head full of bowling balls or balloons or something of that nature, I was still frustrated. I still didn’t want to rest.
Because then, this week wouldn’t be productive enough by my own standards.
Like, as if I didn’t perform and check-off all these things on my to-do list, then my week would be for naught.
But maybe the Lord has more for our weeks than checking off to-do lists.
And He whispered something into my heart and so, by God’s grace (and above the ever-present ringing sound caused by the rather painful state of my eardrums at the moment), I turned my ear to listen.
“Will you rest in Me?”
But, I can’t, see, I actually have this list of things on my agenda and they’re very important to me and…
But then…..I’m tired.
My head is throbbing.
And I have no choice.
So I rest.
And it was then, in the blessed quiet submission that I realized, no matter what I have on my schedule, I am free to always rest in Him.
It’s what we’re promised as His children: to be led beside quiet waters, to be soul-refreshed, to be led down the right paths (psalm 23:1-3) when we give Him our hearts and our trust.
No matter what else is on our agendas, there is one constant that is already filled in for us on each page: Be held.
“The Father loves the Son and has placed everything in His hands” (John 3:35, emphasis mine).
“My sheep [followers of Christ] listen to my voice; I know them, and they follow me. I give them eternal life, and they shall never perish; no one will snatch them out of my hand. My Father, who has given them to me, is greater than all; no one can snatch them out of my Father’s hand. I and the Father are one” (John 11:27-30).
So my prayer is this: When I am sick, may I rest in Him. When I am well again, may I rest in Him. When I’m working, may I rest in Him. May I be led from worry to the quiet waters of His love.
Perhaps it took a physical slow-down for the Lord to remind me to trust Him. To rest in Him.
Now, I think I’ll go eat a spoonful of cookie butter and watch Lady Mary marry Matthew Crawley for the third time.
Blessings and rest to you,